Vaguely reminiscent…

before i forget about everything in the morning (on the assumption that i can survive without sleeping till tmr morning and actually go to class), CONCERT was seriously awesome fun! being on stage was of course awesome shit and acting and dancing (YES YOU HEARD ME) on stage was even more awesome fun! and the coolest / weirdest / strangest part of the whole thing was that i got to wear /nu.m/ singlets (YES YOU HEARD ME CLEARLY) on stage in a pose i never ever dreamed i’d ever be doing. OMG seriously. but it was awesome awesome awesome fun!!!

i can’t thank the bff enough for dragging me into this (and it comes perfectly in line in making my last year in NUS and RH a total blast) and to thank everyone for teaching me how to dance from scratch (seriously). hugs simyee, weiting, yuko, john, cheechung, huajun, simone, hweeshan and everyone else who made concert dance an awesome experience! i’ll miss dancing on stage but most of all, i’ll miss dancing with you all.

something about the stage creates an experience that keeps drawing me every single semester! i think i’ve done something on stage every sem without actual prior planning and every single one of them’s been awesome awesome awesome seriously. i’ll miss the stage when i actually start practicing law.

kk back to my i/p assignment and tons of US/UK and Singapore patent cases. EUGH. plus i’m supposed to finish reading and DOING (shit i have even more to do) the question for discussion in like 7 hours. woots.

much hugs to everyone!

Et alors, ce fin arrive finalement. And what a wait it has been. What a year it has been. What a whirlwind of a rollercoaster it has been.

Well, I’m done with the dreaded five-letter word – e-x-a-m-s – but technically, I don’t really want to think that it’s completely over. I’m still waiting for my law buddies and my hall comrades to finish theirs and it will be party-party-party from then on. Which would come in about 6 days!

Well, one of the things that kept me sane while preparing for my last 2 papers – Corporate Insolvency Law (which is an utter killer I tell you) and Law & Sociology of the Family was this game – Restaurant City. A friend of mine gave me the link on MSN whilst I was panicking for my Maritime Law paper and I’ve never looked back since. And for once (TODAY!) I got a perfect rating of 50.0/50.0!!!

Well, a short brief of what has been written in the annals of my 3rd year in NUS. And it’s a long list yes.

Raffles Hall Orientation (AOGL of Jack Sparrow with the most fun OG I’ve ever handled)
Unplugged (Random dinner performance, Halloween, Valentine’s Day, Phoenix Fest)
Choir (Random performances, Amplitude)
RH Drama (5 Things I Hate About You)
NUS Stage (Back2Back)
RH Dinner & Dance (Headache of massive proportions but with the best company of friends and a great team = the biggest and most fun DnD Raffles has ever seen!)
Perth, Melbourne, Canberra, Sydney (Where I got my camera and cash stolen when I was in the toilet – *&^$) 
Emoness (I better stop doing this in front of everyone next sem onwards)
Crazy days + Crazy nights with crazy friends (Awesome fun)
Awesome Malaysian Trip with Law + Hall Friends
Discovery of Korean Pop music via Wondergirls’ Nobody
Crazy research papers + Insane take home exams
Crazy fun and insane stress @ law firm internships (which I still cannot fathom the reasons why I even applied for internships)
Long long long eye-opening and soul-searching conversations in my room with friends (in 3A-406)
<3

And so another semester has passed and thus, another year in Uni is about to end. Once again, all our paths will split again for about 2-3 months where we’ll be doing other things to keep ourselves busy to try and not think of each other too much and to keep in contact via phone and msn. I’ll miss my friends in law and hall. Like loads. Loads. Loads. But everyone’s gonna have their bit of fun so it all works out well. I should be off to Europe for a month while B’s off to Australia. S and X will be off to Redang and myself, W, S, X, D and M will be off to Genting the weeks leading up to the start of school again.

However, as year 4 looms closer, I can no longer deny that the working world is beckoning closer and closer with every passing day. I make it sound like a monster that’s out to eat me with every step I take but I have faith that it is not one. At least not as vicious sounding or vicious looking. I cannot deny that I am afraid. Because I am. I am afraid of what comes next after graduation. What happens if I land in a shitty law firm with a shitty boss whose ass I have to lick 24/7? What happens if I land in a workplace full of conniving and astute people, perfectly in tune with the politics of the office which may be rampant and insidious? I do think about these things before I lay to sleep in my bed in my room at times and it frightens me but if I’ve learnt anything from my internships, hopefully it’s the knowledge that my future mentors will be understanding and more than willing to impart their knowledge and skills to me.

I must also admit this – the future scares me shitless. What happens when I move back home from hall after 4 years in Raffles? I don’t have my own bed. I don’t have my own room. I seriously hate sleeping in the living room. This however is great ammo for me to argue to rent a place with a bunch of friends but it will still be difficult for them understand the convenience and economics of it all. But I hope they understand. I really hope they do. Especially now. I need the space to do things that I want and need to. I am an adult.

As uncertain as the future is, at least I know I have a few things right now.

1. Friends
2. Family
3. Fun
4. <3

Thank you all.

Lol… Having too much free time in your hands does make you feel bored. Sometimes. Haha… I never knew! Lol.

And so I’ve come back home from hall since last weekend so I’ve officially survived a whole week of home without dying of boredom or becoming crazy. It just seems a bit strange to come back home again with everything that I had back in my hall room. Goodness – it took like a whole van to lug everything I had back home. I had lots of stuff. And I mean lots. And the room didn’t seem to want me to leave! Tiles fell off just before I locked up the room haha…

Yups… I ended my exams earlier than most of my friends back in hall but I stayed back in hall most of the time to accompany those who still had papers that week. Procrastinated on packing up my room until the last few days of moving out haha… I nearly died bringing everything down from the blardy 4th floor. Note to Raffli: Pls do not bring so many things next sem. Be more sensible. But when everyone finished their exams, as in the usual mugging gang, we just went out went out went out! It was loads of fun… I think it was shopping on some day and then Walas on another.

I miss everyone in hall. Everyone.

I miss my neighbours. Who tolerated my music and singing.

I miss my JERK clan who lived on the split level.

I miss seeing the concert ppl walking around in hall.

I miss the view of UCC and Yong Siew Toh at 6 in the morning at daybreak.

I miss the stormy rains in RH when my blinds would go crazy.

I miss the dusty rubbish-filled table in the upper lounge.

I miss taking the BTC bus to school everyday.

I miss going to Cheers at odd hours of the morning.

I miss going for lunch with the hall ppl.

Most of all though, I miss the mugging club loads loads loads. Hugs to you all! =) We will all see each other real real soon I promise. So near and yet so far… Sigh. I still can’t believe how incredibly close we’ve all become. But the last few days before we all moved out were so so fun! We should so continue this when we come back from Seniors’ Camp! We’ll have our own OG or something haha… We’ll call it the Singing OG. Haha. We’ll make everyone sing. Every single cheer. Haha… And we’re so gonna have loads of fun when we go over to M’sia! I promise…

Well, this was supposed to be a brief entry haha… Just to end off: I think I got into NUS Stage! I think haha… I’m still not certain yet. It’s possibly quite a small role but it doesn’t really matter – I think it should still be loads of fun!

Plus, I’m most definitely starting (or re-starting) the Drama Club in Hall – it was made defunct a few years ago because they couldn’t continue with too many few members but I’m drafting the proposals soon for the JCRC to see! That should be loads of fun! Performances every few weeks or so… Planning to do so many things with this CCA! Like Shakespeare, Singapore playwrights, Malaysian playwrights, different languages and my fave MUSICALS! =) Fun fun fun…

Plus it’s pretty confirmed that I’ll be joining DND too, most probably doing programmes I think. That should be loads of fun too…

So combined with Choir and an Arts module – next sem sounds like a blast already. I can feel it already.

Enjoy the hols ppl! Don’t let it pass so easily this time… It should be cherished and treasured!

PS: I better go and find another internship to replace the KL one that I may not be doing in July. Haha… Either that. Or find a part-time job like real soon. After this ASLI thing has ended. =)

Woah… Rediscovery of this awesome version of Phantom… In Mandarin by Fei Xiang and Zhu Hua.

Love love love.

On another note too, I found back my Japanese, Hungarian and Korean recordings of Phantom! Yeay!!!

Very apt title. I am totally in love with this song. Haha… Dark material. But very very nice. Angsty twenty somethings frustrated with life. So me.

It’s from a musical by Duncan Sheik called “Spring Awakening”. Opened on Broadway last year I think. Or was it this year. Awesome show. Wiki it if you can. I think the storyline’s excellent. =) Very dark. All about self and sexual discovery.

[Moritz]
God, I dreamed there was an angel
Who could hear me through the wall
As I cried out-like, in Latin
“This is so not life at all
Help me out-out-of this nightmare”
Then I heard her silver call-
She said: “Just give it time, kid
I come to one and all”

She said: “Give me that hand, please
And the itch you can’t control
Let me teach you how to handle
All the sadness in your soul
Oh, we’ll work that silver magic
Then we’ll aim it at the wall”
She said: “Love may make you blind kid-
But I wouldn’t mind at all”

[All]
It’s the bitch of living
(Bitch, just a bitch)
With nothing but your hand
(Just a bitch, yeah)
Just the bitch of living
As someone you can’t stand

[Georg]
See, each night, it’s like fantastic-
Tossing, turning, without rest
‘Cause my days at the piano
With my teacher and her breasts;
And the music’s like the one thing
I can even get at all
And those breasts!
I mean, God, please
Just let those apples fall

[All]
It’s the bitch of living
(ah, ah, ah)
With nothing going on
(Nothing going on)
Just the bitch of living
Asking: what went wrong?

Do they think we want this?
Oh- who knows?

[Ernst]
See, there’s showering in gym class…

[Hanschen]
Bobby Maler, he’s the best
Looks so nasty in those khakis

[Ernst]
God, my whole life’s like some test

[Otto]
Then there’s Marianna Wheelan
As if she’d return my call

[Hanschen]
It’s like just kiss some ass, man
Then you can screw ‘em all

[All]
Alllllllll

[Melchior]
It’s the bitch of living

[All]
It’s the bitch of living

[Melchior]
And living in your head

[All]
In your head
It’s the bitch

[Melchior]
Of living
And sensing God is dead

[All]
It’s the bitch of living

[Melchior]
You watch me-
Just watch me-

[All]
And trying to get ahead

[Melchior]
I’m calling you one day

[All]
It’s the bitch of living
Just getting out of bed

[Melchior]
All will know

[All]
It’s the bitch of living
Living, Living

[Melchior]
All will know

[All]
And getting what you get
It’s the bitch of living

[Melchior]
And knowing this is it

[All]
God, is this it?
This can’t be it
Oh God, what a bitch!

Haha… Those are the lyrics from “Alvin and the Chipmunks” – one of the songs from the movie. Witch Doctor I think. Cool show… I actually liked it. Went in thinking I would be wasting my money but ended up really really liking the show. Haha…

Well, as you might’ve figured out by now, carolling’s finally ended. And what fun it was! Although it was really really tiring both physically / vocally and mentally, I really really enjoyed this year’s carolling a lot more than last year. First of all, I went carolling with 2 groups this year, the Raffles Hall Choir and with the NUS Choir. Really really cool bunch of people I sang with.

Carolling with RH Choir this year was tons of fun! 3 main places this year I think – Jurong East Entertainment Centre, Ngee Ann City and White Sands. It was kinda tough shifting from tenor and bass when they needed it the most but the most fun we had was after carolling itself. We’d binge (okay not really binge – stuff ourselves!) on really nice good food and with excellent company. One was at Swensen’s. Another was at Clementi. Another was at Holland V. Another was to watch Enchanted and then KTV. Another was to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks after a lunch at a Hong Kong Cafe. Another was to have Tang Yuan in the Block 4 kitchenette because it was some winter solstice thingy. And we had to walk back from Holland V all the way back to RH because we missed the last bus and when we played charades till 5am in the kitchenette.

Most importantly however, all the occasions were accompanied with joyous laughter and just mindless banter with good friends. Carolling itself was quite fun too! We tried to not be so uptight and serious on stage but sometimes, we were just too nervous to smile. Haha… But we had tons of fun singing. Well, I did! I’ll miss all the choir ppl. Heck. I kind of miss carolling already haha… But we’ll be working together again for Phoenix Fest/Rhazzmatazz, whichever it is that RH has decided. But I am sure it’s gonna be tons of fun. A zillion thanks to all the people who made it fun: Shu Shan, Wei Bin, Kavan, Daphne, Gant, Jocelyn, Huiyi, Huiyuan, Brian, JJ, Boon Ghee, Swee Yee, June, Melissa, Shinney, Keith, Chao Chao and the many seniors who came by and helped out and sang with us. Hmmm… Have I forgotten someone? Pardon me if I did.

Carolling with NUS Choir was fun too! I’m not really familiar with everyone yet but everyone’s been so warm and welcoming, it’s hard not to fit in. I sang with them at a few places, I think it was at Marina Square, Wisma Atria, AMK Hub, Tanglin Club and at Shangri-la. Shag shag shag. Shangri-la was the toughest I thought because we had so many sessions in a space of about 4 hours. Fun all the way though. Haha… Here’s where the vocals got drilled I think because one of the most challenging yet most beautiful songs was sung at every session: the melodious O Holy Night. Love that song to death but the belting also scored a toll on my vocal chords because I think I would choose to blast the wrong parts loudly. Haha. Usually my fave parts would be the victim. Plus, I was always afraid I would sing “Bm” wrongly during I’ll Be Home For Christmas”. Infernally afraid. Haha…

But I made tons of friends in NUS Choir! Especially among the basses. Heck… All 4 sections actually. Love all of them. They’re such a bunch of fun-loving people who just love singing because they love singing. Gotta love their passion. Phew – I’ve got a lot to catching up to do. On Christmas Eve, after we finished singing at Shangri-la and after a well-deserved dinner at McDonalds (!!!), a few of us spontaneously decided to stop in the underpass between Wheelock place and Lido and started singing some carols which echoed through the tunnel. It was midnight and we wanted to celebrate the Christmas spirit! So random, so fun!

Other than that, the month’s been a month of catching up with dear old friends whom I’ve neglected (sorry!) this past semester. For example, this evening, I just got back from Edison’s ReWinds concert at VCH – great concert. I liked most of the pieces though I only liked parts of Othello. But I loved Global Variations. More examples would be when I met up with Chris for lunch at Holland V’s Thai Express. I also indulged in chocolate heaven with Bjorn at Max Brenner’s. Had supper with Daniel and Shaun over Geylang’s famous beef horfun/seafood horfun and tau huay. Had drinks (well I had a Shirley Temple which is a mocktail but still technically a drink) with Tim, Daniel, Shaun, Kelvin, Farid and the CME ppl after one of our carolling sessions. But I still have tons of people to meet up with. Sighs… So little time before school starts again haha.

Oh and as I mentioned last night, I finished Peculiar Chris, having found it accidentally at the Central Library. Really loved the book – it had moments of awesome insight and made me think. But at times it was a bit too cursory for my taste. Still like the book tons despite its flaws. The author took a very bold step when he chose to publish it and I really admire his courage. And the fact that he was from RJ as well really makes me proud to be a RJ student too. =) Plus the fact that I watched Asian Boys Vol 3 really made me like the book even more. That was a great play. The book on which it was based on? Equally great.

Plus, it reminded me once more why I love books so much. I’m very much a visual person – that’s why I take so long to read a book sometimes. I like to imagine myself being in the author’s or protagonist’s shoes and imagining myself in the story itself. Making it real. I just love immersing myself in a book and smiling or slightly laughing (softly of course) in the train or on the bus when reading a passage that I’m highly amused about. While reading Peculiar Chris, I teared a bit when Samuel died beside Chris in an almost pathetic yet quietly strong way. My sister used to think I was mad to smile out of nowhere at the randomest of times when reading a book. Strangers would sometimes stare as well. But I don’t care. I do as I please as long as I’m doing no harm to anyone else. I think that’s why Giselle attracted me so much in “Enchanted”. She sings. Very well but very randomly at very random times. And she cares not a toot what other people think. I love that. And I love her.

I’m finishing up Neil Gaiman’s “Stardust” by tomorrow and will start on Philip Pullman’s “Northern Lights” as well. Hopefully, I can also finish Captain Bluebear before school starts. Crap. I was so supposed to open up my next sem’s books. Like last week!!! Haha… And I so need to read a Lit classic before school begins because I know I won’t have time to do so once hell breaks loose again. I’ve got Oscar Wilde’s “Woman of No Importance” and Edward Albee’s “Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf” staring back at me on my desk under the desk lights. Lol. Officially, I’ve touched them. That’s a start. Above that however, I have “The Law of Trusts and Equitable Remedies” and “Constitutional Law in Malaysia and Singapore” threatening to fall on my head from the shelves. Nagging back at me.

And I still want to read more books. Been meaning to read more. I feel a need to reread Dan Brown’s “The Da Vinci Code” and Gregory Maguire’s “Wicked”. I want to reread “Bridget Jones’ Diary” and the slew of Adrian Mole diaries. And I so want to read the last 2 books in the Harry Potter series. I’ve not even read them! Omg. And I want to get “Mister B.Gone” by horror maestro Clive Barker and the other books by Walter Moers and the subsequent books by Jasper Fforde on Thursday Next after “Something Rotten”. I want to read ‘chick-lit’ too!!! Like the Shopaholic diaries. Heard they are an awesome fun read. I want to read more of Charlotte Brontë and of Dickens. I want to read more of Shakespeare. I really do miss literature so much. Sigh.

The night’s calm once again and my mind’s at ease once more. Some RH friends are having a friendly game of mahjong and laughing once in a while to the sounds of the tiles being arranged. I don’t even hear the crickets belt a symphony which is great. It’s nice to have this feeling. Kind of an after-Christmas calming effect. I like it.

Φιλοδοξία 

Omigod… Concert’s finally over and I’m having mixed feelings. Extremely happy that it’s ended and that it was a great success but sad that I won’t be seeing the cast members in the dance studio anymore. I love them so so much! Wonderful great bunch to work with – so incredibly talented, every single one of them!

When I sat in the audience last night at their last performance, I couldn’t stop crying and laughing at every single scene throughout the whole show. Even through the Prologue that was not supposed to make sense until much later. Cried and cried. I think Shaun, who was sitting next to me, thought I was having a nervous breakdown and was being overly emo. But that’s what I am. Emotional for things that I have passion about.

When we were in the Dressing Room getting ready for the final performance, I was really gonna cry in front of them but I suppressed it a lot, in case they broke down as well and their make up started running. But we all felt it. All of us. We were now so close and the small space in the dressing room made it all the more heartfelt. I could see that they had all grown from being the wide-eyed freshies I first met in the auditions and during our first week of rehearsals to a very tightly-knit group. Very tightly knit. I really held it back.

My main intention in doing concert was to imbibe in the Year 1s a sense of camaraderie that I felt when I was in concert – always feeling supported and to forge incredible friendships that will last for many years to come. Especially within the Raffles Hall family. To make sure that they enjoyed staying and making friends in hall. =) I didn’t go for orientation so most of my friends in RH came from concert – I know a few of them were in the same situation. I am just so so glad that they bonded and made friends and became so close. I love them so much!

Directing was tough I must say. Very very tough. I had many decisions to make and the script to reckon with. Having had only the training from last year’s concert, I set off to make sure that the concert was an enjoyable experience for all the Year 1s involved. I’m glad that it’s totally paid off. At times, I doubted myself many many times. The worst time was during Concert Bash. Bash was fun and everything but when I was alone I suddenly felt it. That creeping emo-ness that comes ever so often. Most of my friends had already left earlier on. And I was alone. Not wanting to dance. I went out, sat beside the Singapore River and just started crying. Alone. Under the light of a lamppost.

Thinking of the many lessons I did not go for and prepare for. Thinking whether everything was worth it or not. Thinking of all the seniors breathing down our necks because of the many doubts they had.

Notwithstanding the many criticisms the seniors through at us, I know that most of these comments were to make sure that the Year 1s knew that there was also space for improvement but through the rehearsal process, I realized that this concert was not the product of the seniors but more of the Year 1s. I realized this and I told them that they could choose not to follow the Senior’s advice if it didn’t fit with the characters they identified with. This way, they felt that their characters were really their own – not mine, but their own for it was them who gave these characters in the script life.

Last week during Comm Hall run when I broke down in front of them because I was so disappointed with their performance earlier, I could see that they were really affected. Even some of the guys were tearing I know. I just knew that the many sacrifices they made and knew they had so much more that they could show, so much more energy they could inject – I knew that they were so much more than what I saw earlier. And I knew that at that time, they had definitely bonded as a group and were ready to spur their friends on. All of them. And last night’s performance was INCREDIBLE and a testament to their incredible talents.

God… I love them so so much. Wonderful bunch of kids. =) So much passion and initiative. I’m glad they learnt so much through the process and made the characters all their own.

And guys. We totally made it through! All the 8 weeks of plodding through the script and reworking it with readings and blocking and characterization all have paid off! Last night’s performance was EXCELLENT… beyond all my wildest dreams. You guys were FANTASTIC! I couldn’t stop tearing at every single scene because my little baby suddenly grew into this huge show that involved some 100 plus Year 1s plus the few of us in the Central Concert Committee. Omg. Bawls… And all your characters on stage were impeccable. I can’t even describe what I felt. I will miss you guys so so much…

Daphne - Thanks so much for agreeing to be Chorale Director! I was so so worried that I would just die without having a co-director but you always were there to help out with the directing and to help me destress when I was so stressed. Thanks for being such a great friend and taking the Concert journey with me! =) Cast loves you!

Liren - Thanks so much for the choreography!!! The show would so not be what it was if not for you plus Joo Teng and Erwin. And you’re seriously the nicest person I’ve met – damn accommodating and super duper friendly. Thanks for the many hours you spent with the lovely cast. I’m sure they love you too!

Eileen - Thanks so much for all the many hours you spent ploughing through the lines and getting into the character of the Princess. The character was so not you but I knew that you could definitely do it – you are an incredible actress with a superb voice to boot. I knew I found the Princess the first time at auditions.

Akash - You are an amazing actor and singer man! Haha – so many late nights caused you to sometimes come late for rehearsals but you always put in the best effort you could serve. Thanks for the many hours at rehearsals and agreeing to even do a swordfight! Haha… you are 1 incredible person.

Jerome - You’re damn dedicated and steady, gotta love ya for that. Amazing deep booming voice and great acting. Oh and thanks for the amazing swordfight!

Yuko -Seriously, concert would not have been what it was if not for you. Your suggestions for bonding were seriously what made concert what it was. And that IMM outing last week really made sure that everyone bond properly. Haha… the shopping thing was so damn fun too. You have an amazing voice – use it and show it off to the world girl!

Benjamin - Haha… THE KING. Lol… Thanks so much for growing into the character! You and Weiting are dynamic on stage really. I replaced ya once and there was no chemistry whatsoever. Lol. I think she laughed when she saw me lol. Thanks for taking your time off SciClub stuff to come down for rehearsals that lasted until midnight. And sometimes after. =) And you’re really the perfect humsup king. Haha…

Kaili - My law junior… Thanks for taking time off your studies for rehearsals! Year 1 is tough but it would so seriously be nought without something as big as Concert to spur you on! =) Super fun to work with and you should take up the stage again girl! The 3 girl pose during the commoner’s scene was hilarious!

Caleb - Dude, you’re seriously the happiest person I’ve met so far. Always bringing smiles to everyone during rehearsals. =) Thanks for bringing so much happiness into cast! All the best for Arts Club!

Brian - You have grown so much as an actor and friend! All those crazy late night suppers after cast rehearsals in the comm hall. Lol. You are damn zai in music so you should definitely let your passion to be on stage come back to you! =) A natural on stage…

Sam - Man!!! You are the one that gelled the whole cast together! And you helped me regain my sanity when everything seemed to go wrong with your many suggestions. =) Thanks so so much. Totally grateful to ya! You’re a good friend to all of us – don’t be afraid to take on the stage again man. You’re an incredible actor and singer. =) All the best for everything.

JJ – You and Sam are a dynamic duo and I really really though you guys were brothers or something when you guys first came down for auditions. Haha lol. Incredible actor and singer – take on the stage again man! Your smile always made Cast a much happier place to work in and I am pretty sure that whole cast loves you too! =) Seriously, it is your happy and smiley nature that cures people of their sorrow – not your hands! Lol.

Weiting - Girl! You are one incredible lady!!! I knew the moment you came into auditions, you had to be in cast no matter what. And you perform every time like a total pro. Without fail. You and Ben are like another dynamic duo in cast! Haha… Remember when I tried to be the King. And you laughed? Lol. You’re a total natural on stage – get on stage more often girl! And you’re also 0ne of the sweetest girls around, always giving words and gestures of encouragement to every single cast member and giving incredible suggestions to everything. I loved that you always helped out with those who were unsure with the dance. You so totally rawk. =)

Swee Yee – At first, I thought that you were this really quiet quiet girl who was very reserved but as I got to know you better, you’re so totally not that! Super friendly and always coming down to rehearsals with a smile, you’re one girl with dedication! =) Loved your bitchiness with Weiting lol… haha… And that running to the bed thing. Was classic. Thanks for being in cast and being such a supportive cast member to all!

Pauline – You are one great singer and actress!!! =) I knew I had to give you a solo somewhere in the show and that’s why you were in the Politics scene! So totally glad I made that choice – you were perfect on stage. I loved your bitchy mother too! Poor Yi Ting lol… At first, I thought that you and Yi Ting were super quiet and reserved but as time passed by, you guys were so totally not! Always bringing a laugh to Cast with your smiles and bitchiness haha… Thanks for being a part of cast!

Yi Ting – The adorable daughter who sleeps with her brother every night!!! Haha… Lol. I’m so sorry for the many ‘petite’ jokes we may have all cracked but seriously, you’re a very talented girl! Don’t be afraid to take on the stage next time. =) Oh and tell me when your next choir concerts are! I’m starting NUS choir this monday and I’m damn scared lol… Will take tips from you. And Brian.

Clara – The super adorable and cute Queen and Dara. Last but not least… Omg… Seriously. Cast would totally not be like what it was if not for you. Your cheerfulness, smiles and laughter always made Cast a much happier place. And made the bonding all the more stronger. Thanks for always putting on so much effort to get into character and taking time off your Pharm stuff to join us in rehearsals. You and Weiting.

Seniors - Special thanks goes to Jieke, Antonia, Gerald, Grace, Tommy, Alvin, Ying Ting, Clement, Sherilyn and Keith for lending a hand at Directing when it was in need. Really really. Thanks from the bottom of my heart. I could not have survived if not for all your help.

And so closes another chapter in my life. Φιλοδοξία. Filodoksia. Cast. 2007.

I loved working with every single one of you and everytime I think of the last scene in Act 2, tears start welling up. God. I love every single one of you and hope that you guys have made tons of friends through concert and enjoyed every single moment of it like I did. I made a family out of all of you. And you guys are so much a family to me now.

Love you all. Miss you all.

“All eyes long to see beauty,
We never knew what we wish for.
For all man’s greatest achievements,
This is their deepest fall.

To put a price on beauty,
To weigh it with a scale,
To let the value of beauty
And not the worth of man prevail.”

I always cry when you guys sing this.

Goodbye Filodoksia. Goodbye stage.

Hello. Books.

Property assignment’s due on Monday morning and I’m still only halfway through but I am damn happy. Nearly cried today when I saw the full run. Granted that they were quite tired because we had just completed a full run earlier – that was potentially better than the one they had later but ya – was damn happy when I saw the final run!

I am so so proud of every single one of them. I love every single one of them. For pouring in their hard work and precious time for all the many rehearsals we’ve had for the many weeks past. For supporting each other throughout these rough few weeks. For understanding each other. For spurring on each other every single day. For acceding to my requests when I had them. For being accepting of my sometimes crazy ideas. For making me feel that everything was totally worth it. Thanks guys and gals – You have all really been a family to me. I’ve not met my family nor gone home for many many weeks already, but you guys just warm my heart everytime I step into the Dance Studio. Really.

Next up is the arduous and always torturous Comm Hall week. Brace yourselves up for criticism guys. But please, hold your heads up high for the accomplishments thus far. And remember to always support each other when the time comes. You will know when the time comes.

Cheers,
Raffli.