Vaguely reminiscent…

I am so tired. Haha…

And it’s already 2.30am and I’m still not asleep. Lol. Old habits are hard to kick. Really.

Phew… December, January and February promises to be a jam-packed period. Totally.

Choir’s taking up a bulk of the time – both hall and NUS. December because of carolling engagements and Jan and Feb because of the upcoming VV Concert. Do come ya? Haha.

Next would be the upcoming Law Careers Fair 2008. I’m the overall in charge of it and I’m envisioning a bigger affair than last year’s. Hopefully it goes off without a hitch but it would most probably be held end of Feb or early March, before most of the students disappear to study for the exams in late April and early May. I foresee a big headache in Jan and Feb when everything starts coming together. Lol. Hopefully I’ll have a great committee by then to ably handle the matters that I’ll delegate to them.

Then up next would be RH Phoenix Mag – I need to find out their progress these Dec holidays to find out how to pace the writers and layouters for next sem in order to complete the magazine in time. The members and heads are a hardworking bunch – love working with them! =) The crunch for this would be Feb onwards when more activities are being held and IHG ends.

Next in priority would be Concert and its fate. I will try my very bestest to guide my enthusiastic juniors should they choose to take up Directorship of next year’s concert and tell them as much as I can about the problems I faced while doing concert. It was certainly not a thornless bed of roses but I gained a lot from it and had tons of fun working with the committees and the cast. Was a total blast. It was tough though – really tough working without an assistant director. Like I said, I am totally grateful to my choral director, dance choreographers. producers and the many seniors who helped out. But I am very willing to help the juniors out. I’m unsure though how this will fit if I get to go for exchange.

Finally, (and scarily last) would be trying to pull up my grades to scrape the upper percentile letter for this Acad Year. Sem 1 portents well although I’m not sure how it is until I see my actual results (I tend to scream and squeal when I see my results no matter what it is). Praying hard.

A few of my friends have noted that I tend to actually LIKE having things on my plate, especially when it’s full. It’s almost like a goal. Really. It seems to be coming truer with every semester. Hmm. I just don’t like being idle too much you see – I’d rather be doing something no matter how torturous it is to occupy myself. I almost died last semester during the 3 months break not having anything substantial to do. Luckily I had a job that lasted me throughout the hols. Someone needs to teach me how to not put to many things on my schedule. I myself think it’s quite crazy sometimes and often, in bed, I would think how I have put myself in such positions where I find no time to go back home to my parents and siblings. To go on a holiday even. Sigh. But it’s me and my character I think.

A good friend told me that it’s because I want to make up for lost time. It rings an eerie bell. Really. It was on the spot. Especially considering the lost time and wasted opportunities in JC and Secondary School. I kind of made up for it during Army because I was given a leadership role then. But I know I have tons to make up for. Seniors keep lamenting that one would totally miss Uni once you leave it because you’ll never ever be able to get back the experiences that you had while in Uni. I think that’s why hall is so important to me. I want my Uni life to be memorable. If not by affecting others, by allowing myself to immerse myself in an environment that allows me to be a part of it, an important part of it. That seems to be the rationale at the moment. To imprint my name on as many things as possible.

Call me superficial. Call me dumb. Call me crazy. But I do have lost time to make up. I just don’t want my years spent unproductively. Zoom bang crash… 22 years of my life have already passed and the big 23 is approaching soon. I can’t believe how old I am. Really. It’s scary. And like at least 18 years of my life has or will be spent in school and 2 1/2 years to the Army. Numbers are starting to become scary.

Maybe that answers one of my other friend’s queries.

Why am I so ready to jump into a relationship now? Because ya. The reasons above.

Why am I so busy all the time? Because ya. The reasons above.

Why is it so difficult for me to find myself lounging around at home? Because ya. The reasons above.

I am not attention-seeker I swear. But ya, I just find myself being involved in things somehow or rather. Somehow not knowing how I got there. Lol.

But. It does get rather lonely sometimes despite having all your friends around you all the time.

I leave you O trusted bloggie with the following lines from Jason Mraz’s “I’m Yours”…

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
A lá peaceful melody
It’s your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

Hell yeah! My ICT finally ended yesterday and I can’t believe it but I was totally shagged out by the end of the day. It was one ‘interesting’ reservist. One reason being that it was my very first one. Second being that I was the only one in the whole battallion who was there for the first time. Info: 662 Guards is quite a new unit, about 4 years since infancy I think.

The Camp I stayed in sucked like crap – hated it to the core because it was hot hot hot every hour and every day. And the mosquitoes refused to leave me alone. My bed was an infestation of bed bugs and mosquitoes and I would wake up in the morning covered in red marks. Plus, I never slept in peace at all… Haha. My QM Platoon mates described the mosquito bites on my neck as Lovebites. Lol… They were that big and visible. The canteen sucked and the food at the cookhouse was just bad. After all the nice lunches and dinners of the past year in school, I hated everything that the Army had to offer. Even the nightsnacks which were supposed to be the best. Lol.

Day 1 – Horrendous horrendous. Came to camp in cab because I had a huge black trolley bag together with my green field pack. And even before I stepped past the guard house, I was already sweating like a pig. Was told that my bunk was at the far corner of the camp so I went there and began unpacking a bit. Then went for an intensely hot CO parade followed by a cohesion practice route march around the camp premises in the sweltering heat. Then was told to shift the bunk to another corner of the camp. Damn it! I love efficiency. Then just ambled around in my bunk until I received instructions by people passing by and by dinner, I was in dire need of a shower. Bloody hot day.

Day 2 – Went for a practice mission in the outfield involving helicopters. Quite interesting. And I got to know more about my fellow reservists in the department. Very interesting mix of people. Everyone’s already in their 4th ICT cycle and are all working. There was an SIA Pilot, a Real Estate Agent, a Health Sciences dude, project managers but NO STUDENTS! Lol… Sigh… Was the odd one out but it was kinda fun talking to them all while sitting on GS benches in the shade.

Day 3 – Can’t really remember much, just that it was very very hot. Oh and we did Chemical Defense retraining which was quite exciting though ridiculously hot in the training shack due to the thickness of the suits. And we had nights off that evening! I hurried home for a while to check out my emails in case any came in from school and then went back to camp with some tidbits in hand.

Day 4 – Shag shag day. Had a route march in the evening in Full Battle Order. Lol… Was freaking tired throughout the whole thing because my shoulders were aching like shit. My legs and feet and everything else were okay but my shoulders were in dire need of pain relief. Haha – I attribute this to the fact that I’ve not been really carrying much stuff on my shoulders ever since school began. A laptop and books do not equate to an SBO, a rifle and a complete Field Pack. Lol. I know now… Was damn happy to get back to my bed that night. But not when the mosquitoes started attacking again. Very viciously. I do believe I suffered much lesser outside than when I was on my bed. It is ridiculous.

Day 5 – Uneventful but a lot of waiting involved in the hot hot sun. Think we waited for like hours after lunch waiting for something to happen but didn’t happen until hours later. Rushing to wait. And then wait. And wait. Wait. Lol… Then it was home.

I guess overall, I think that ICT was quite eventful. Was quite lost when I first came in on the first day because I didn’t know a single person there but luckily the guys in the department were very nice and friendly. Warmed up ok with them I think. And before the ICT ended, they were already talking about our next ICT which I may have to miss because it would most probably fall during the school semester. Plus. I may be going for Exchange so I may miss it because of that.

Oh and I got a call from my hall mate asking me to go down to town to celebrate a good friend’s birthday! The one who “CLEANED” my room till it was bare of everything. Had drinks over at Esplanade. Wanted to get a seat at Harry’s but there wasn’t any so we went to Aria after walking around a bit at Suntec searching for chocolates and GAP. Lol… Had a good chat about life and army stuff. Lol. That always pops up. I hope it doesn’t pop up during law camp! Forgotten what my mocktail was but it was reddish in colour and had grapefruit and cranberry in it. I think. Took the Night Rider back home at about 2.30am after that.

And that was my week. There was to be a Museum visit today I think but it’s been changed to another date I think and there’s tuition tmr. And then there’s law camp from Sunday evening all the way through to Friday afternoon… Can’t wait. Believe it will be tons of fun and lots of catching up with the rest of them whom I’m not spoken to for damn long! And then it’s a bit of rest time (maybe working back at the law firm for a while) and then back to hall and preparing for Hall Production. Sounds very very exciting! Can’t wait…

Till then…

Au revoir mes amis,
Raffli.
(Qui est un peu triste parce que pas de personne me dit qu’il y a un reunion à Sentosa. Mais c’est okay… )